I notice you. I see you. Since the first moment I held you in my arms, you’ve been the center of my world. You’ve had me wrapped around your finger since your first breath.
I know the squeaky wheel gets the attention but I see you. I know you are there. I cherish every glance and stolen moment we share together. I miss the days of rubbing your back to get you to drift off to sleep and I think you do to.
I love that we are becoming more and more alike. I love seeing your sense of humor develop and seeing you “get” more things. I see more of me in you.
I love that you ask me almost always what I am wearing when we are going out, or to bed or just around the house in an attempt to coordinate. It flatters me that you want to be anything like me because I think you are so amazing just the way you are and you wanting to be like me, tells me that in some small way, you feel the same way about me.
You were my first. You will always be my first born and only Bella. You hold my heart in your smile. You always have, since the moment that you were born. With each passing day, I love you more and the world would be a much less beautiful place without you in it.
Thank you for being you. For letting me love you. You are not the constant cuddle monster that your sister is but when you do, you mean it. There is nothing like it. Nothing in this world makes me happier than your smile.
I see you growing. Caught somewhere between a child and a teenager. Still needing me and wanting me but trying to assert your independence. Ever needing to expand your wings. I see it. I see all of it. I feel when your heart hurts navigating these new waters and I just wait to catch you, when you will let me.
I watched you on the stage tonight and I was mesmerized. When did you become so tall and statuesque? When did you become so graceful, my little angel? You are so much wonderful and you don’t even know it. You leave me breathless and in awe on a regular basis.
The year is ending. You are nine. Soon, you will be ten. I know that one day soon, there will be boys and friends that will take my place as the person that you most want to spend your time with. I know I have to make all the todays count. I see you. I’ve always seen you and I always will.
I love you to the moon and back, baby. No, I love you more than that!