Parenting is nothing you expected and everything you could have imagined all rolled into one. I have been spit up on, pooped on, vomited on all before 7 a.m. in the newborn years. I’ve watched my toddler shove a pearl up her nose and poop in her mouth, and I’ve even masticated food. Not as fun as it sounds. I’ve survived breast buds and the sex talk. I share everything I ever learned and you might want to know about parenting from pregnancy to labor thru to the teens years. It’s is hard but it’s the toughest job that you’ll ever love but the salary sucks.
How do I begin to let you go?
In one week, I’ll be taking you to college drop off
But how am I supposed to let you go?
The very thought shatters my heart into a million pieces
It hurts so badly that I cannot breathe
I’m sobbing so hard at the thought of not being able to just look over and see your smile
How am I supposed to drive away knowing everything will change
And nothing will ever be the same
If it were up to me, I’d never let you I go
I know that sounds selfish but that’s a mothers heart
But I will and I’ll hold in my tears and let you go when all I want to do is hold on tighter
Every “last“ chips away at my armor
How am I supposed to survive this letting go?
You were the first person I gave my heart completely to and you’ve held it tightly in your litttle hands since the first moment they laid you on my chest
Who am I without you?
I can’t imagine a day without seeing your face
You are the greatest love story of my life
Truth be told, I don’t want you to go but that’s nothing I’d ever say out loud
I love you more than words can convey
I’m hopelessly sad for myself but I’m so excited for every new first you get to experience
Your dreams are bigger than this town and your life is bigger than this house
It feels like doing anything that doesn’t include giving you my full attention, is a waste of precious moments
I just walked across the hallway to see your sleeping face one last time before you leave me
I’m not sure my heart was made for missing you
How will I survive knowing you’re not just across the hallway?
A mothers love is an unbreakable tether, no matter how far you go, we’ll always be connected
But both of us know, this will change everything
We’ll never be who we are today
You won’t be across the hall….