A journey of 1000 Miles starts with a Single Step; The First Day of the Rest of My Life

by Deborah Cruz

Well, after last weeks posts,most of you are aware that I have had some  issues with my weight. Or should I say that I have struggled with my weight since I was old enough to realize what weight and body image were.I wasn’t necessarily heavy the entire time but you remember how when you were a teenager, absolutely everything was life or death, well for me the entire focus was on my body. I had thin athletic parents and all my friends were stereo typical cheerleader types in high school.So, that made being average sized feel like I was morbidly obese, though I was not.

Then I went away to college and I was so deathly afraid of gaining the “freshman 15” that I literally started starving myself to death. Since then, its been a string of me trying to find a way to keep my body at a weight that was healthy without starving to death or restricting myself.It’s a hard balance to find.I’ve lost and I’ve gained, like most women in America. ..the world, really. You start having children and before you know it, you’ve put on a few extra pounds here, then a few more there and soon you are looking in the mirror and wondering who the hell this person staring back at you is in the mirror. Being a Mommy, I am guilty of always putting my girls first. I try to find time for me but it is truly few and far between, especially now with the Big Guy gone so much for work. A couple months ago, I decided it was time to find my way back to “me” in Mommy. I really made a concerted effort to find some me time, exercise, make myself look presentable, date nights and some of it has stuck and some has not.One of the first things I noticed  to go, as I sit here typing in my yoga pants and sweatshirt, was the taking time to get ready in the morning.Don’t get me wrong, the reminder has eliminated the yoga pants and ponytails appearance every day. But I realized as I don’t feel good in my own skin; my body isn’t where I want it to be, it has become harder to feel presentable..even in a nice dress and a hot pair of heels.

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This was in September this year on my Birthday.This is what I look like today as I start this journey!

So, I have resolved that I need to lose some weight, for me. Not for my husband or society but for me.I was joking and told my husband that I was going to call this journey my journey from hot mess to hot mommy but that’s not true. I am  NOT a hot mess. I’ve pretty much got it together,with the exception of my weight. I’m simply a woman on a journey to feel comfortable in my own skin. Lucky for me, I have been given an amazing opportunity to be a part of the Nutrisystem Nation blogging program. They have agreed to help me on my journey by providing me with the tools and convenience to reach my goal this time, in a healthy way. No, I’m not making a big reveal of my starting weight..I’m honest, not crazy, but my weight is the one thing I keep private. This is a very big deal to go public with my weight loss journey because it is the one part of my life that is usually off limits. But I trust you, you’re my friends. You’ll be supportive and that’s what I am counting on. You are my accountability.I will keep you posted once a week on my progress.

You, my friends, have been with me through the metaphorical thick and thin of my life over the past year, now I need your support in the the physical thick and thin of my life. I’m starting this journey today…right now. My plan is to combine a lot of Nutrisystem with a good amount of Zumba and a brand new perspective. I want to feel at home in my own body, not like I am visiting a strange planet. I want to be healthy,I want to be a good example for my girls.I want to be able to keep up with my 3 and 5 year old. I want to not be mortified to get in a bathing suit for swim lessons.I want to believe my husband when he tells me that I am sexy.I want the mirror to reflect someone I recognize.I want to be around for a long time to see my children grow up and have my grandchildren. I want to be comfortable in my own skin!

DISCLOSURE: Nutrisystem is providing their  program to me free of charge in exchange for my participation in the Nutrisystem Nation Blogging Program and weekly updates. I am not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed in this post are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255

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18 comments

That one girl 2010/11/01 - 10:54 am

You are beautiful girl and you can do this!

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In Real Life 2010/11/01 - 11:15 am

Awesome! I love the quote that you used as your title, it's true and it works! It took me about a year, but slowly and steadily I reached my fitness goal. I am looking forward to reading your weekly updates! 🙂

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Tanyia 2010/11/01 - 2:04 pm

Good luck to you, you are a beautiful woman and you deserve to feel beautiful!

I too recently started taking care of myself for a change… it is amazing how we forget about our selves in order to do everything for everyone else.

In my case I started and lost about 26 pounds and then found out I am pregnant lol … so I am struggling emotionally right now with feeling like I can control my situation, but maybe I will get some inspiration from you!

The best of luck! -Tanyia

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Jill 2010/11/01 - 2:06 pm

How wonderful of you to share this journey. It's so easy to gain and so hard to lose! I've been there myself. I wish you all the very best and I'm looking forward to your posts about it!
You'll be an inspiration to many!
Blessings,
Jill

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Krysta 2010/11/01 - 2:06 pm

Exciting!

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~*Jess*~ 2010/11/01 - 2:55 pm

You are awesome and I know you'll kick butt at it! Love it!

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Truthful Mommy 2010/11/01 - 11:05 am

@ That one girl,
Thank you so much! I know I Can do it.I am excited to start this journey and feel comfortable in my own skin. I'm sick of considering angels and sides, when trying to take a simple pic with my girls because I am so worried about whether or not I look fat in a shot. Thank you so much for the support. I really do have the best readers.Muah!

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H-Mama 2010/11/01 - 3:06 pm

Being comfortable in your own skin… that's what it's all about, right? Such a delicate balance making it all work. Wishing you the best on this journey. It's a daily one for me. 😉

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Truthful Mommy 2010/11/01 - 12:14 pm

@ IRL,
That is my goal. I want to do it the right way and keep it off. I'm looking forward to this journey:)Thanks for the support!

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sara 2010/11/01 - 4:31 pm

Good luck mama! And let us know how you like the Sumba…I'm curious about it!

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Truthful Mommy 2010/11/01 - 2:16 pm

@Tanyia,
Aww, congratulations on the weight loss and the pregnancy! Thanks for the support. I'm sure once your little one arrives you will be right back on task!Happy mothering!

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Truthful Mommy 2010/11/01 - 2:18 pm

@ Jill,
Thank you! It is hard to lose and for me its always a struggle to stay the course and do it the healthy way, slow and steady. Thanks for stopping by and for the blessings!

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Truthful Mommy 2010/11/01 - 2:20 pm

@ Krysta,
Thank you. I am VERY excited for this journey!I can't wait to see and feel the results!

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Robin 2010/11/01 - 6:21 pm

I think that it is great that you are doing this for you. I think that having people to support you in this will make it easier. The most inspiring weight loss blog that I follow is Chris at A Deliberate Life. You can find it on my profile page under the listings of all the blogs I follow. I think reading inspirational stories of people who are going through the same helps. She also follows many weight loss blogs, so you can check out who she is reading. I know that you can do it!!!

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Truthful Mommy 2010/11/01 - 3:18 pm

@Jess,
Thanks Mama for all the support!I'll keep you all posted every Monday!

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Truthful Mommy 2010/11/01 - 3:19 pm

@H-Mama,
YOu are so beautiful. I'd say you've found the balance!Thanks for the luck!I'll keep you posted:)

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Busy Working Mama 2010/11/01 - 8:33 pm

Good for you, hon, and you are NOT a hot mess. I read your blog and you're a kind, fun, wonderful woman and mom. And beautiful, too! I wish you the best of luck! I'm such a freak that an extra 5 pounds bothers me and makes me uncomfortable in my own skin. It's important to feel good about yourself and be healthy for yourself and your family.

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