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My Daughter Thinks I’m Ugly

by Deborah Cruz

Talk about your body image being crushed. My daughter thinks I’m ugly. She told me that I’m prettier on the “inside” than I am on the outside. She even qualified it by saying, “Mommy, I’ve lived on the inside, so I should know.” She told me this last week.

I won’t lie; I wasn’t looking particularly pretty on that day. If I remember correctly, I was wearing yoga pants, a tank top and my hair was pulled back in a disheveled ponytail. You know, the same thing I wore yesterday and the day before and probably today. Isn’t that the standard new Mommy uniform? It is in my house. Or maybe I’m just too tired to care lately. It’s been a hectic summer with lots of changes and little sleep.

But I still can’t believe that my 7-year-old gave me the old “its what’s on the inside that counts” speech. I don’t want that speech. I wrote that speech. It’s like getting the “it’s not you, it’s me” speech. You know what it really means is that is absolutely YOU. I know she didn’t intentionally mean to hurt my feelings. That was just a side effect of her brutal honesty. It’s not like she knows about the years of eating disorders, the body dysmorphic disorder or the negative self-image that I battle daily. How could she? I hide it from her.

What’s body image, Mommy?

Have I done my job too well? I’ve always tried to teach the girls to look beyond the surface in themselves and in others. I don’t want them to think anyone’s worth is based on what someone looks like. I don’t want them to end up in the position where they judge themselves and others on what the body looks like. I want them to have a positive body image. I don’t want size and shape to matter. I want them to understand that the body is just a shell to hold the beautiful spirit within. My biggest fear is that they will end up like me.

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All I know is that it hurt. This is probably more my issue than it is hers. But aren’t little kids supposed to think their moms are beautiful no matter what they look like? Isn’t that the law? I mean there are people that do have ugly children and they still think they are beautiful because they are looking at them through love goggles. I don’ think it’s even possible to think our own children are ugly because they are dripping in love. Wouldn’t the world be a better place if we all did this? At the very least, shouldn’t our children always look at us with love colored glasses?

I want to keep her body image intact.

I always remember thinking my mom was the most beautiful woman in the world just because she was my mom. You know the lady who gave birth to me, fed me, clothed me and loved me despite my bad attitude during the teen years. The same woman who spent a lifetime making sacrifices so that I didn’t have to. My mom was always the most beautiful woman to me in any room because she loved me. She was the kisser of boo-boos, the mender of broken hearts and the woman who cuddled me when I was sad. She made it all better. She is amazing and she is still the most beautiful woman to me, inside and out. No one else can even hold a candle to my mom’s heart and spirit. It is unrelenting.

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I do all those same things. I know that I should be proud of my daughter for looking beyond just the shell, as I have taught her but I guess I thought that only applied to other people. I took for granted that maybe my outside wasn’t as pretty as my inside. I never thought about how my own body image would suffer knowing that what was on the inside was prettier than what was on the outside.

Logic tells me that this is a good thing but why are my feelings so hurt?  Has your child ever said something to you about the way you look or dress that really hurt your feelings?

Psst, has anyone seen my little girl’s beer goggles, I think she may have dropped them at school. We need those back immediately. My body image has taken a 10 point dip since she made this comment.

 

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NPRMommy 2012/08/28 - 12:01 pm

ouch! i can tell how much you are hurt by this. to be fair, she didn’t say you were ugly. she said you were prettier on the inside than on the outside. and i would hope most people (regardless of how “pretty”) would hope people viewed them as prettier on the inside. you’ve taught her to judge people by what they’re like on the inside, and she’s judged you as pretty!

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Deborah Cruz 2012/08/28 - 10:43 pm

I guess I am lucky she didn’t say it the other way around. Oh wait, she has. I know she didn’t call me ugly. I know she loves me. I also know that I’m a little more sensitive than I probably should be about this but it’s the worst possible week of the month for my kid to tell me that I’ve got a great personality:)LOL

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Giselle Camilleri 2017/12/04 - 5:50 pm

Bang.i found this comment because I am feeling just the same way as you did.My 7 yr old looking closely to me said mummy you know what I don’t like about you. Your eyebrows…the shape..you look like a witch.then your eyes are too close to one another,your nose is crooked,and you got wrinkles …..my eyes filled with years as I said.is there anything you like…she said your boobs( breastfed 3 yrs)..I felt my self esteem take a big plunge.gosh I m ugly…oh man it hurts coming from yr kid

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Toots 2019/09/05 - 8:44 am

Same as you down to a T – my 7 year old told me this morning that if I won the lottery I should have some plastic surgery to make my face prettier as it’s quite ugly and that I should stop wearing glasses. Like you I asked if she thought anything was nice about me and she answered ‘boobs are the only thing really.’ It’s not the first time she’s made a comment but this time it stung that bit more. ☹️

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Lisa 2012/08/28 - 1:24 pm

Been there, heard that. Last night my 7 y/o son grabbed my upper arm and told his cub scout troop that I was fat and squishy.

Thanks, kid.

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Deborah Cruz 2012/08/28 - 10:47 pm

Ouch! See, that might have made me cry a little this week. Next week, it may have gotten him and “oh yeah. Its your fault!”LOL THen I would have hugged him with my big squishy arms:)

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Arnebya 2012/08/28 - 2:26 pm

My oldest daughter has done this, unintentionally, I think (at first). It’s all about the boobs. Hers are bigger than mine (she is 11. Fucking shit!) and she asked, while in Target, if I wanted to get matching bras but “Oh, nevermind, Mommy; they don’t have any small enough for you.” Since that comment, she’s made offhanded remarks about my lack of bosom but I want to show her I am happy with my body, I accept my nonbreastage, lack of cleavage, virtual daily need to wear a padded bra. I present the this is my body and I love it face. Inside? I HATE THIS BODY, GIVE ME BOOBS!

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Deborah Cruz 2012/08/28 - 10:48 pm

You are good. Never let them see you sweat. They will never know your kryptonite because you are super smart. Damn, you are good!

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Kristen Daukas 2012/08/28 - 8:23 pm

Does it count that my girls have all commented on my ahem…ample bussom and (non)JLo butt? I just laugh and tell them that it’s all because of them and that one day, they’ll have the exact same look as me! Usually shuts them up for a week or so.

Personally – I think you’re a knockout inside, outside and where it counts the most – in the brain!

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Deborah Cruz 2012/08/28 - 10:45 pm

Can I please adopt you? This would make me feel infinitely more pretty:) Thanks for the sweet words.
Finally, somebody gives credit to my brain and not just my ample bosoms with the great personality!

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Delfin Joaquin Paris III 2012/08/28 - 10:36 pm

There’s only one solution here – make another kid and hope that he finds your features striking.

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Deborah Cruz 2012/08/28 - 10:41 pm

DJ,
But were it so easy. That’s a lot of work just to satisfy my vanity:)
Luckily for me, my second daughter is completely blind to my flaws and finds me quite the handsome woman:)

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Giselle Camilleri 2017/12/04 - 5:54 pm

Hello, it’s exactly what I told my kid..I don’t think she appreciated my comment

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Andrea 2012/08/29 - 10:52 am

I’ll never forget the time one of my children told me that I look like an old man. I don’t even remember which one said it. All I know is that they were at the age when kids just say what’s on their minds, and I will never forget it. It made me feel so terrible. These days my kids know better. They tell me I’m younger than all their friends’ parents. No word on beauty, but these days I’ll take young over pretty.

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Mary Samadani 2017/09/24 - 3:47 pm

My daughter is 8. I’m 54. I had her later in life. She told me today that she wished I was younger… like 20. She also wished I was pretty. I told her that some things you can’t change like your age. I wish. I wanted another child so bad I went to a doctor to help me get pregnant. Paid lots of money doing it. She’s always ashamed of me. She does want me to go to the school. She’s always putting me down. When I was het ahe I never thought anything bad about my mom. I just don’t get it. I know she’s a child but it really hurts. I canny help but think now that I madder a high mistake to have a child at my age since I’m an embarrassment. Please help me to deal with this.

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Deborah Cruz 2017/09/26 - 11:15 am

It doesn’t matter if it’s a child or not, it hurts. TO be honest, it may hurt even more when it’s your own child because we just expect them to love everything about us because we do them. She loves you. I’m so sorry that you are going through this. It stinks. Please don’t let this come between you and your child. Just keep reminding yourself that she is only 8 and she has no filter and lacks the ability to tactfully say things. You may want to sit her down and just say, sweetie when you say things like that, it hurts my feelings and that may be enough to stop it. Maybe even tell her the story about wanting her so badly and what you went through to have her. Maybe it will give her an appreciation of what she has, an amazing, beautiful human being of a mother who was willing to sacrifice time, money and her own health to bring that child into the world. And take deep breaths because remember, you love her and she loves you and she is a child and they don’t think before they speak. They blurt every single thought at any given moment and it changes from moment to moment.

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Evie Moreno 2018/08/01 - 1:47 am

Awwww I guess is the age? Tomorrow is the first day of school for my 6 year old, I asked him if he wanted for me to take him and he said no, my aunt can take me (my sister works there) I kept asking why why until he said becasue I was ugly… that was at 5pm and it is 11 and I’m still crying!! My heart is shattered:,( I know he means it and is because I am and I’m obese and I know I have to do something about it! I used to be beautiful ….

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Cindy 2012/08/31 - 2:21 pm

We all say it doesent count. Then we hear it and we’re like “what a load of shit”

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Suzanne H 2012/09/12 - 8:24 am

My son started preschool this summer. He told me some of the kids in my class thought I was gross. I asked him what he said back to them and he said nothing. I couldn’t believe how hurt I was that 1. a bunch of 4 year olds thought I was gross and 2. my son didn’t stand up for me. Seriously, I know that’s nuts but it really hurt my feelings. I perseverated for days over what I could have done in front of these kids to be percieved as “gross!”

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eva 2012/09/12 - 11:45 am

Hi,
great article. Here’s my take. The Disney princesses are causing a big part of this problem. They are coming into the american girls’ lives too early and every single one of them is beautiful AND wears great clothes. You see, I’m from Europe, so when I was growing up, I was read ancient roman fables, and great tales by Andersen (danish), and folk tales from all the nations, with animal characters in them, and I learned from those from a very early age, that beauty is not even so important in life. It’s being smart and kind is what got those characters life exciting. I didn’t even know what a disney princess was until I was 10 or 12. I also grew up knowing that princes and princesses are real in UK, Denmark, Sweden, Norway, Greece, Netherlands, Monaco, Greece etc, because they have a reinging king or queen AND they wear jeans sometimes. Those fables got had my value system going in the right direction at an early age. Point is: less disney princesses is what I recommend. It works in our family, and we have two girls, we still go to Disney and enjoy the princesses, but in proportion.

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janet 2012/09/13 - 2:28 pm

I just had to respond to your blog because my 8 year old son hurt my feelings so badly recently that I cried for the longest time. We had been looking at Halloween costumes, and one that we had seen was a “blimp” type person inflatable costume. Air fills it up and makes the person a round globe with a head, arms, and legs. He told me that if I got that costume, I wouldn’t need air to fill it up. Normally, I’d have brushed it off, maybe even laughed at that, but for some reason that day it really got to me. DH and I both had a talk with him about the kinds of things you don’t say to people and being mindful of others’ feelings. It’s not the first time we’ve had that talk.

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debbi 2012/09/14 - 11:27 pm

OMG! Tonight my 7 year old asked me to smile at her and said ‘why aren’t you as pretty as the rest of the family?’ then she said but you are the nicest. she asked me if it was mean to say and i told her she could tell me anything but I wouldn’t say that to any friend as their feelings would get hurt. Of course my feelings were hurt too but I didn’t want her to know since it was her honest opinion. So I really feel sad now.
so I certainly understand your situation!

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debbi 2012/09/15 - 7:35 pm

so tonight we went out to dinner and my daughter said something about my tummy. then I said we shouldn’t get desert or your tummy will look like mine. she cried and cried. ;-( sadly i didn’t know i looked so bad to her. now the last couple days have been a rude awakening for me! i am only 130 lbs. 5’4″ I am not obese. sad to me that it bothers her that if she looks like me, she would be so sad. ;-(

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Rosalyn 2013/03/01 - 9:06 am

Just put a comment above— won’t take it confuse

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Christine 2013/04/29 - 2:38 pm

My 7 year old daughter in the last few months keeps telling me that “I need to exercise to get skinny”, or “you are too fat to do push ups”, “Don’t you want to get skinny mommy”? One night recently we were picking avatars for the xbox and she said “You have to make yours fatter mommy”…my husband says she is just saying what she sees. I’m overweight to which my husband says is ‘abnormal’. I’m 5 1 and weigh 135 lbs. I could lose 20 lbs for sure, but it is so hurtful to have my child and husband making comments on a regular basis. Although it should motivate me, it simply hurts me and pushes me further into a depressed state about myself. I don’t eat unhealthy, but I do have a job where I sit all day…and I do not work out. This I realize, I need to do and my biggest struggle is time for myself as I am in the sandwich generation with a parent in a nursing home and 2 small kids + I work full time. It hurts me when she keeps saying those things to me as I think she is embarrassed by me. Note I live in a trendy neighbourhood where ‘yummy mummies’ seem to be the norm. I’m the chubby mummy! As others have commented before me, these comments always hurt but some days these comments hurt more than others and do bring me to tears.

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Deborah Cruz 2013/04/29 - 3:40 pm

Oh, my friend. MY youngest does the same thing but if she sees that I get hurt by it she retracts her statements. I know it shouldn’t hurt an d she doesn’t mean it as a dig, but it does hurt my feelings, some days worse than others. Others I just remind myself that she is only 5. I’m sure no matter what weight you are, your child still thinks you every bit of amazing. And 135, doesn’t sound heavy to me at all.

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Sandy 2013/10/23 - 4:13 pm

I just found this when searching for “My daughter thinks I’m ugly,” I feel a bit better after reading about others with the same problem. My daughter just went on a field trip with her first grade class, I wasn’t able to chaperon this time. When I asked her, whose mommy or daddy was the chaperon, she said “__’s mom, she is beautiful and doesn’t have red spots like you.” I have adult acne, it isn’t bad but it bothers my daughter as she brings it up all the time. It made me cry, I needed comfort and I found this article. Thank you.

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Deborah Cruz 2013/10/23 - 8:01 pm

I’m so glad the article let you know that you are not alone. I am sure that your daughter loves you more than anyone else in the world. And if it came down to it, you are the most beautiful woman in the world to her.

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Giselle Camilleri 2017/12/04 - 6:11 pm

Sandy, same her.i googled same thing as you.i wanted to find someone out there sharing same comments from their kids.Oh
Man it hurts when your own kid whom you love tenderly , spits out the truth …I think it hurts because we are aware of our fleas but we know that we can’t change our physical appearance ( as for me can’t remove wrinkles or change shape of nose or eyebrows)..
I feel I m not alone after having read your comments.
All I can say is that we have to be strong and accept ourselves the way we are or if we can make small changes then …let’s do it.kids love to see their mums attractive

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Tasha 2014/07/03 - 2:43 am

My 5 year little girl told me that her brain tells her that im ugly and she keeps trying to tell it no. I told her thats ok if thats how you really feel then its ok.. Trying to teach honesty but deep inside my heart hearts so bad because a few years back she use to look at magazine models and say mommy.. I am getting older but dangg! ;( lok

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Tasha 2014/07/03 - 2:46 am

Hurts sorry for the typos!! Typing too fast out of hurt does it lol it only happened last nightttt ;(

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shandi 2014/08/15 - 2:16 pm

My 11 year old has recently started insulting me and calling it “jokes”. She said, “Wow did you see that fat lady? She’s really fat… I mean she’s fatter than my Mom.” It hurt. It really hurt. I didn’t realize she saw me that way. I wear a size 12 so I guess I’m bigger than I should be. I was just hoping that my daughter saw me different than everyone else. So, it gave me the opportunity to explain the difference between being honest and being cruel. And calling someone fat is never a funny joke. I just suddenly have this sinking feeling that I’m actually an embarrassment to her.

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Deborah Cruz 2016/10/04 - 2:29 pm

Oh no, I am so sorry. You know anyone else in the world could call me a dog face and I wouldn’t give a flying flip but you are right, the thought that someone that I adore so completely could not think that I am the most amazing thing in the word seems to streamline break my heart. If it helps any, I think at 11 she is testing her limits. She loves you unconditionally and I’m sure that one day she will realize how truly amazing you are. Hugs mama!

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Natalie Champmin 2016/03/07 - 8:35 am

I was just out of my morning shower and was covering my tummy with bio oil when my daughter decided to tell me that she hates my tummy its disgusting. She is 3 and a bit.

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Denisa Havasi 2016/10/04 - 2:05 pm

Haha….I just googled kids think I’m ugly and the article came up…lately my kids told me that I’m a little bit fat and a little ugly. Although I did laugh and tried to look not bothered, it did hurt me a lot…since then it made me very self conscious and I’m even scared to eat a treat in front of them as I feel guilty….I do not want to be looked at as an ugly mother…Strangely I also thought that kids would think you are the most beautiful since you are their mother, and I’m sure I never thought of my mom as ugly…

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apparantly ugly 2017/06/18 - 5:15 am

My grandaughter thinks I’m ugly and feels sorry for me because I look ugly. I’m only forty, and was actually shocked to find out she thinks I’m ugly. She talks about it often and even when she doesn’t say it with words, I see the look of pity in her eyes when she looks at me. She has even tried to make me look pretty, but was unsatisfied with the results. I tell her I like the way God made me and that I think I’m pretty, but she doesn’t have to think the same. It really hurts my feelings, but I don’t tell her that. I remember, as a child, staring at my mother and grandmother and thinking how beautiful they were. Honestly, I think something is wrong with this generation that they don’t see beauty when they look at the ones they love. I don’t know what’s causing it. My grandaughter doesnt watch Disney and she is taught that there are many types of beauty. The funny thing is, she points out how beautiful strangers are sometimes, and they are far from what society says is beautiful. I’m not quite sure why she sees beauty in everyone else, but not me. Even though it hurts me, I actually feel more sorry for her because if she can’t find beauty in someone she loves, then she isn’t letting love guide her. By the way, from looking at all the pictures attached to the comments and article, well, all of you are beautiful. You really are!

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Robin 2018/03/12 - 1:23 am

Wow. I too googled my child said I was ugly. I am so thankful for all of these comments. It has to be something with the generation. I am a single mom. Their dad would make me feel really insecure and awful but even he never said anything bad about my looks. But like all of you it isn’t even that I believe her but I just can’t believe she thinks these thoughts and says then. I never ever thought my mom was ugly. Even now I see old pics of my mom as a kid. She wasn’t very attractive I guess but I don’t really think or see that….I really don’t think anyone is ugly so I just don’t get why a kid would think it or say it or feel it. It hurts me to think of someone that way…I’d feel guilty thinking it. I don’t get their thought process at all.

Mine have talked about my squishy tummy…I have yellow feet…wrinkles…bad hair ….u name it.

Thank goodness for all of you …and I sure hope we can improve the empathy and compassion in these kids.

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Nina 2017/07/03 - 1:04 pm

I too had a conversation with my 8 year old that somehow left me devastated.
Why in the world would I give this little girl so much power. I could feel her staring at me yesterday. She was not being particularly loving. I asked her what was wrong. I told her she could tell me anything and we could talk it out. By this time she was crying and saying she really needed to tell me how she was feeling. She precedes to tell me that my whole body was fat and that she wished she had me as her mom but in a different form. My eyebrows were too thin, my eyes and nose were too big and my hair was not soft and pretty. Oh, and my stomach, legs and butt were huge. She wished I looked like her friend’s mom. She is bawling at this point apologizing for saying hurtful things but she feels so much better because she is being “honest”. I was speechless. She said those thoughts go through her head so often that it felt good to tell me. Seriously!!! It is like she affirmed every insecurity I have felt but never said. I do Crossfit, eat Paleo and very rarely indulge. Somehow I am fit over skinny but not fat. I had two babies in my 40s so the war wounds after 3 c-sections are visible. I would like to say who cares. Obviously me! I know, my issue…. how did I raise such a superficial child. I pride myself in being genuine and authentic and would share just about anything with a stranger. I have failed somewhere. I hope and pray I can help her change that mindset. I will love her where she is and work on the obvious but I won’t lie. I feel betrayed. Girls are supposed to think their mommy is beautiful….maybe my boys will feel differently. If not, maybe by then I won’t care.

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Heatbroken 2017/12/14 - 11:53 pm

You post struck a cord with me. I have been struggling with my 7 year old daughter making comments on a regular about my weight. I am very overweight. It is something I struggled with my whole life. And to have myh daughter repeatedly say things to me is tearing me apart. She has has flat out told me maybe she would love me more if I was skinny. She has asked my husband why he would marry someone like me, and why can’t she have a skinny mom. I am heartbroken. How could my own daughter keep doing it over and oiver again? She knows I am hurt. She has been told to stop. She has been removed from family situations and told she cannot return until she can be kind. And she won’t stop. I have twin boys…they are 2.5 yrs old. And I am started to become terrified they too will look at me like this.

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Momma K 2017/07/24 - 11:07 am

I was actually just told by my 15yr old boy that I was ugly while on a float trip yesterday. We were with a bunch on friends (all of whom have either 1 child or none and free to live at the gym as much as they please) I am a mother of 4 and not as active as i would like to be. It really hurt my feelings and im still pretty sour about it. I have raised him with manners but its like the day he turned a teenager that all went out the window. I always thought my mother was the prettiest woman alive and would never think to say any such thing to her. On a side note im sure i will be told all day how beautiful i am because i will remind him that i am too ugly to be in public so all the places he needed a ride to today I will not be going to.. 🙂

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Robin 2018/03/12 - 1:27 am

Omggg wow do we all have the most hurtful kids?? WTH. I too told my daughter I don’t think I can take her to school or gymnastics because I think I’m too ugly to be out in public…she will have to get a pretty mom to do it:)

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Jesse 2017/08/12 - 12:57 am

I too Googled “My kid thinks I’m ugly,” and found this site. It really is a relief. My daughter is adopted from China, and truly is a sweet kid. But the other day she said “Mommy, I wish you were Chinese too, so you could be pretty.” Now, I am torn between being proud that she sees her ‘differences’ as beautiful, and hurt because I will never look like her — and never be as “pretty” in her eyes as her birth mother might have been. I didn’t say anything, but she is pretty observant, and knew that my feelings were hurt — and she apologized, etc… Which made me feel even a little worse — she was just thinking out loud, not trying to be mean. But in my mind, I worry that she is fantasizing of a prettier, more “alike” Mommy.

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Ily 2017/12/02 - 12:05 am

Tonight my daughter of 7 years old told me i am ugly, I have a fat face and she wish i could have blue eyes , blond haur and pale skin…… i felt devastated . I am latina , of course brown eye and brown skin ….. I am spechless … I Feel truly sad

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Toots 2019/09/05 - 8:57 am

I bet you are beautiful – my 7 year old daughter said similar to me but opposite – she wishes I had brown hair/skin/eyes like her and daddy and thinks my pale skin blonde hair and blue eyes (and the fact that I wear glasses) is really ugly. It really hurts doesn’t it? I always thought my mum was beautiful and it’s painful to think my daughter doesn’t think the same. Hopefully it’s just an age thing. According to her I need to dye my hair and go on a sunbed!

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Lia 2017/12/29 - 12:06 am

My daughter just told me that she doesn’t like my eye color. I’m crushed. I used to get tons of compliments on my hazel eyes. I envy blue eyes but I always thought they were still pretty. I’m the only non-blue-eyed person in our family. My mother had blue eyes. I always thought she liked mine but when my daughter was born she told me how happy she was that my daughter turned out to have blue eyes, and how disappointed she was when mine turned hazel. My father, who had brown eyes, said the same thing when my daughter was born. I handled it poorly when my daughter said that she didn’t like my eye color. My mother died two months ago and I’m a wreck. I started crying and told her it hurt and walked away because I knew I was going to bawl in the next room.

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Gen Tor 2018/05/23 - 9:32 am

Wow. Thank you for this article. It was my wedding anniversary yesterday and my 5 year old son went into a tirade about “My mom is not cute! How could she be cute?” He was arguing with my husband about it. It just broke my heart. We’ve had some very stressful family situations (jobs, our ministry is struggling, and trying to balance everything) so it was just another blow that really sent the tears. I didn’t cry in front of him. My husband said, “Do you realize you’re calling your mom ugly?” His eyes got wide and then he agreed that’s what he meant. It just breaks my heart because I used to watch my mom (a waitress when I was little) and dream of being just like her, admiring her muscled calves, and thinking she was beautiful. How is it that our children look on us with such disdain? I would remote (full-time) so I can homeschool my son. I work from 7:30am-7:30pm to fit it all in…then I clean house and try to serve supper and try to spend time playing with the kids. I’m worn out, I’m frustrated, and now he thinks that this person who sacrifices so much for him is ugly? I love him dearly so I didn’t let on much but I just hurt.

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Deborah Cruz 2018/05/23 - 2:19 pm

Sweet mama, just remember he is 5. Pardon my French but he doesn’t know sh*t about real beauty. Also, kids sometimes say things to be funny not realizing the full weight of their words. I am sure he does not think you are ugly. I am sure you are the most beautiful person in the world to him. Just think of who he reaches for in the night when he is afraid, who he cries for when he is hurt, who is his person who he knows will always love and care for him. YOU! He knows that. He loves you. Kids are just jerky sometimes.

I am sure that he sees your great, big beautiful heart and it is the most beautiful thing he has ever seen. He loves you. He’s just being a kid and pushing his boundaries. Go away for a holiday for a couple days and see how he begs you to come home with a new appreciation. Sometimes its hard to be the bigger person. I know, obviously, I have been there. But getting some distance from it, I know my to my daughters I am the most amazing person in their lives. I know because at 11 and 13, they now appreciate it. They tell me I am beautiful and believe me when I tell you on most days I am not. I’m not ugly but I’m also not 20 anymore. I’ve been raising babies for 13 years and I’ve sacrificed some things to give them what they need. They always look great. I look weathered 🙂 But I feel beautiful because they believe I am. And so are you! Hugs, mama! Hang in there. One day, your little guy will open his eyes and see just how gorgeous you are.

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Joy 2018/09/01 - 11:33 pm

I have a 9 year old son who just told me he doesn’t want me to cut my hair because it makes me look ugly. I told him that he looks like me, so what does that say about him. His response, “Well I guess I’m ugly.” I told him that was the one of the most hurtful things you could ever say to a mother and I just walked away. He apologized later after his other Mom told him too. It seemed genuine, but I’m so very hurt. Is it bad that I’m glad that he is crying because I want him to feel some of the emotional pain that I feel?

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Susan 2018/10/04 - 11:53 pm

I’m glad I’m not the only one. I spend hours a day with my daughter whom I Homeschool. She’s an amazing child. Sweet and kind. So I was surprised when she told me that she felt I wasn’t beautiful. At that age I thought my mom was beautiful and I never stopped thinking that. I feel ugly and sad. The good thing is my husband reminds me I am beautiful and my 9 year old son says it without hesitation and without prompting. It makes me so sad and I feel a little distant from my daughter even though I don’t want that. I’m just so hurt. She saw the most beautiful picture of me I had and only said she thought my hair should be different. I’m devastated.

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